There I said it. I admitted it. I’ve been in a funk for the past few days and at first I wasn’t understanding why. In the last 11 years I’ve never forgotten February 14th. Not for Valentines day, but that is the day I lost my grandmother in 2001. My grandma and I were really close and I get emotional every year when I think about what i wish she was able to see me accomplish and share with me.
Yesterday, I got a call that my daughter was finally accepted into an early head start program that I have been trying to get her into and I had so much to do that I completely forgot about yesterday. So I’ve been on a 3 day binge eating horribly. I feel guilty and i know I need to get it back together
I can make a ton of excuses about this and not do anything about it….but I’m not going to. Excuses are excuses and they do not excuse the fact that I have not stuck to the commitment i was making to myself. Something will always happen in life to make me upset or disappointed or sad….that is not an excuse to overeat and eat like a pig. So I will be getting back together….thanks to everyone that has shown encouragement I appreciate it.
So I’ve noticed I often have this conversation with myself: “I’m post call, I can eat whatever I want. I’ve been awake for 35 straight hours!” or “It’s exam week, I can eat whatever I want” or “I’m on my period, I can eat whatever I want!”. And you know what ends up happening?!?!? I end up making terrible decisions regarding what I put in my body and half the time every time I end up feeling sick! I never noticed how bad it was until today. I was on call and at the hospital for about 27 hours, and the whole time I ate crappy! Then I left, and kept eating crappy! Now that I’m logging everything on myfitnesspal, I can see just how crappy it was. Lemme tell you, it’s so bad!!!!
NO MORE EXCUSES!!!!
I’m committing today to eat healthier and make better decisions no matter what!!! Just because I’m post-call or on my period or have a test coming up doesn’t mean I get to abuse my body! Seeing as I have a test coming up next week, we’ll see just how committed I am to this! I’ll post after my test and let you know how this new commitment went!! 😀