Are you on a DIET???

“Hey, you want a cookie?  I made them last night!”

“No, thanks though.”

“What, you’re on a diet?”

Has anyone else ever been in this awkward exchange, where someone questions you about your eating habits changing in such an accusatory tone it almost makes you want to reply, “Who?  ME???  I’m not on a diet!” when in fact you are?

I’m sitting around a board table with a meeting about to start and this very thing happens.  Our boss brings in doughnuts, he plops them right in front of me and says, “You get the first one!”  Why can’t I politely decline a sugar-filled dough ball without a barrage of questions and side glances!!??

The truth is, everyone wants to look amazing and fit and then pretend it just *happened* overnight.  People closet diet, workout in secret, meal prep and plan and say they “threw something together this morning”, so in a few months they can walk in looking lept (slang for skinny :p)  and then claim that they weren’t even trying.  *insert sigh of exasperation here*.

And why?  Because losing weight is HARD!  It’s a struggle!  And no one wants to admit their own personal challenge with weight because it makes you vulnerable.  In our society we shame those larger than us and mock our plus sized queens and demonize putting on baby weight or those winter pounds.  When secretly its something most of us have to deal with on a daily basis.

Well, guess what?  NO! YES.  I’M NOT ON A DIET!!! *sigh of relief*  And please don’t get this confused with, “I’m changing my habits to eat healthier.”  That’s not what I mean.  I mean I am purposefully changing my eating habits from my normal routine in a healthy restrictive way with the intent purpose of losing a significant amount of weight.  And after my two week stretch, I will transition to maintaining some of my “diet” eating choices and also allowing myself to eat less healthy items in moderation as I try *again* to choose a healthier eating lifestyle.

Please share your journey here if you would like with non-judegemental people who share in your…well…our…struggle to be a better us!! :)


Emotional Eating

I have a problem with emotional eating.

There I said it.  I admitted it.  I’ve been in a funk for the past few days and at first I wasn’t understanding why.  In the last 11 years I’ve never forgotten February 14th.  Not for Valentines day, but that is the day I lost my grandmother in 2001.  My grandma and I were really close and I get emotional every year when I think about what i wish she was able to see me accomplish and share with me.

Yesterday, I got a call that my daughter was finally accepted into an early head start program that I have been trying to get her into  and I had so  much to do that I completely forgot about yesterday.  So I’ve been  on a 3 day binge eating horribly.  I feel guilty and i know I need to get it back together

I can make a ton of excuses about this and not do anything about it….but I’m not going to.  Excuses are excuses and they do not excuse the fact that I have not stuck to the commitment i was making to myself.  Something will always happen in life to make me upset or disappointed or sad….that is not an excuse to overeat and eat like a pig.  So I will be getting back together….thanks to everyone that has shown encouragement  I appreciate it.


Excuses, excuses!

So I’ve noticed I often have this conversation with myself: “I’m post call, I can eat whatever I want.  I’ve been awake for 35 straight hours!”  or “It’s exam week, I can eat whatever I want”  or “I’m on my period, I can eat whatever I want!”.  And you know what ends up happening?!?!?  I end up making terrible decisions regarding what I put in my body and half the time every time I end up feeling sick!  I never noticed how bad it was until today.  I was on call and at the hospital for about 27 hours, and the whole time I ate crappy!  Then I left, and kept eating crappy!  Now that I’m logging everything on myfitnesspal, I can see just how crappy it was.  Lemme tell you, it’s so bad!!!!  


I’m committing today to eat healthier and make better decisions no matter what!!!  Just because I’m post-call or on my period or have a test coming up doesn’t mean I get to abuse my body!  Seeing as I have a test coming up next week, we’ll see just how committed I am to this!  I’ll post after my test and let you know how this new commitment went!! 😀

❤ Rhea